it was one hell of a night at greg's place..

that made me think about why i've never experienced such craziness in singapore, and i came to a few conclusions.

firstly, most of my friends still stay with the family, and u know that with family comes restriction.
secondly, house parties cannot be too noisy, if not ur next door neighbour will come and "eh, 10pm already, want to slp."
lastly, it's so much preparation work and clean up, who the hell organises a house party?

alright, i guess last night was the first of many nights that i got really drunk. i still drove back from greg's place, but if i remember correctly i made quite a few wide turns cuz the thing i really wanted to do was really come back and slp.

when i reached my room, i was so tempted to just fall on the bed and slp, but as there was a strong smell of food from the cooking, i convinced myself to take a shower. before i took my shower, the toilet bowl caught my eye, and i just went to sit down for AWHILE. i dunno how long later but i know i almost fell asleep, i went to take a quick shower, and decision call was too gone to brush teeth, so just popped on my retainers without brushing(sigh, that's disgusting.)

i woke up to the big pile of messy clothes i've left beside my bed last night, and my towel was still in the toilet. and a very bad headache. and today is sunday. and there's supposed to be pple online. and also gotta revise for my flights. and i'm AWESOME. ;)

back from english class, didn't do much today, spent 30 mins to prepare a briefing for an instrument landing system approach procedure, and the other 1.5 hours were spent on all 4 of us presenting it. even though i think i didn't do too well, for example my knowledge of the "missed approach" procedure is base on time, but in fact it is based on altitude, the instructor said "for a first timer, it was perfect."

aiseh, that was a real confidence booster since i'll probably be spending the rest of my career doing briefings like that. initially i thought he was just trying to be nice as i was the first presenter, but at the end of the day he said to the class his general opinion is the briefing is not very well done, "except for the first one which was really good" *BEAMS WITH PRIDE*

haha. enough of boasting, gotta prepare for french class. alors.. ciao.

well well, we've reached the time of the week again, it's friday's lunchtime!
let's say the work has ended for this week, cuz wad's left for today is 2 hours of aeronautical english lessons with some ex colonel from the air traffic control. damn it kinda sucks but i can't deny the fact that he's really knowledgeable..

so the hot water was back last night, and the heater is back today. and quek passed was given YET another chance after his concealment board. phew i really hope he makes it through this time round. and it's scary for me, u know that kind of feeling that failing is so easy is this field. damn.

probably will start flying next week, hopefully asap! i've been on the ground far too long! the last time i flew was almost 9 months ago god dammit i wanna go up there! u just gotta love ur work, and never feel any resentment towards it, that's wad keeps one happy.

hahaha! coach was such an ass today. he got us a brochure of this race course thing, where we could pay some money to drive those ATAS cars in the circuit for a few laps.
www.cascadevents.fr for more details.

10 mins after he gave us the brochure he came in and asked if we'll do it, and we said probably not anytime soon, until maybe when we're about to leave for the 3rd phase we'll go ahead cuz it's about 300 euros for maybe 10 mins at most? and guess wad coach said? "oh my god, u guys are not fighters anymore! you've turn into secretaries after being on the ground for so long. maybe i should tell the R**F to change ur contracts to the vocation of secretaries.."

haha, fat me and mirage 2000

haha, of all days, the hot water supply has to be down TODAY! when there is a ceremony later.. came to take a shower, and despite the cold, i took the shower. not funny. i hated cold showers, even in singapore.. it gives u the feeling of poverty and helplessness.. haha.. hopefully i'll get to see a mirage and it's afterburners later!

i wished i could enjoy milk like normal people. no need for the toilet after drinking too much milk. isn't that good? i wonder wad went wrong, it wasn't like that when i was a kid, but as i grew up somehow i can't really take milk. but life's a bitch. i really have got that soft spot for fresh milk. haha. damn, things kinda suck these few days. don't really wanna talk about it cuz it's really not worth the effort getting upset over those issues..

grr..

haha, gabby lau tried to mimic me by turning the steering wheel with 1 hand, almost banged off someone's side mirror and almost hit the kerb too. damn that was scary.. and jon yap's connection in the room is up, the internet will probably improve! haha..

just to show how much of a blessing it is to have me as a friend, i drove out specially to buy a cake for cyrille kuntz cuz it's his birthday tmr and since we'll be at work we can't celebrate it so we celebrated for him today.. haha..

skyped with my family today and guess wad daddy said to me?
daddy: "must keep fit, u're getting so fat look at ur tummy! dont train just to pass ippt, u know that for ur job u have to stay physically fit all the time.."

daddy: "dont worry about chinese new year, mummy and i dont really like it anyway, it's just a flow of motion. i guess wad u really miss out is only the ang baos."
me: "no, it's the steamboat.."
daddy: "aiyah steamboat anytime also can eat one, when you're back i cook for u"

haha i guess i was pretty touched by that cuz it shows that he cares..


maybe today is one of those emo days that when i look at people's pictures and when they're all smiling happily, i wonder to myself, "what does it take to be happy?"

a few years back, i thought by having financial security i'll be happy. today, i would say, having more money wouldn't be a bad thing but i think i'm doing fine, at 21.5 yrs old, i have over 30k sgd in assets, and i'm drawing 4k a month with not really alot of things to spend on.. although i feel poor all the time i know that in reality i'm better off than many of my peers out there, struggling to make ends meet, worrying about their tuition fees and issues like this. so, wad am i emo-ing about?

it's probably one of the more exciting careers one could have out there. but i don't feel as great. someone really old in this field once said in a dialogue session "we're surrounded by people of the same calibre that we tend to forget our individual importance. every now and then we have to remind ourselves the tough roads we've come through and until today so as not to undermine our own abilities."

argh. this thought is not going the right direction, it should really stop here.

the week was pretty awesome, with the car and it showed us how much more convenient it really was.. it was quite a long day today, driving here and there in search of the phantom asian supermarket which ended up to be an empty plot of land.. nevertheless, we had kfc for the first time in 3 months.. hhaha.. and to be frank, the normal french supermarkets do the job for me equally well, milk, fruits and juices.. ended the day with some dota-ing.. haha.. apparently there are not many forms of entertainment.. lol..

i changed my pillowcase! the one my sister passed to jon when he went back to singapore.. man, the pillowcase smells of my cupboard and i kinda miss home.. haha! i forgot to mention we bought new iron, weighing scale, and a heater for quek cuz the one in his room is spoilt.. to be frank, i really think it's a blessing to have me as a good friend, cuz when i'm nice to a person, i can be really nice.. needless to say i was the only one who thought of the heater when we went into the home appliances store.. and i bet this question has been in ur head, have i put on weight? yes indeed, i'm 65.7kg now haha.. 2kg away from my fattest stage in my life, back in the slack old poly yr 2 days.. a limit for myself is by the time i return to singapore i will not be a 7 header..

haha, once again, my fitness levels are at very low levels.. all i did was run 5km yesterday, and i had a cramp in my left calf at the end of it.. played soccer today and now not only my calf is strained.. not to mention my aching arms from the 3 days of pull ups.. damn, before the holidays i could do 15 already and it dropped all the way to 7.. so on sunday i began by doing 7-6-5 and yesterday 7-5-5 and today i did 8 and i gave up cuz it was too painful..

don't get me wrong.. i'm not whining about the aches, i'm reminding myself for the --th time that MAINTAINING the fitness is EASIER than BUILDING up the fitness FROM SCRATCH.. yes, excuses such as end work late and there's no lights at night to run and it's too cold to run.. apparently i'm a very anal person cuz as wad goguey says, excuses are like the anus, everybody has one.. somehow i have a little bit more than others.. haha.. things are going pretty well at the moment, memorised all the start up and shut down checks for the aircraft already. it's good. now, to shut down the engine (time for an early night)

damn.. "memories" is really catchy.. the rest of the song is unimportant, the "du du du du du du" is damn catchy can!

seriously, they need to stop doing shit with the car, today is only the 3rd day we've got it but i kinda pity the car.. it went thru 15 engine stalls (1 contributed by me cuz after parking i forgot to put to neutral), 1 bump at the bottom cuz jon yap decided to drive off the kerb as a shortcut, and 1 hit on the right front bumper cuz jon yap cock it up again. who the heck bangs the wall while parking?

and i really pity the engine cuz i feel it's been abused, pple changing wrong gears from 5 to 2, driving 10/20km/h at gear 3, harsh accelerating and braking.. a common misconception is that whenever they engage a gear they have to accelerate, and it is essential to drag the gears.. NO! it kinda feels like i'm sitting on a taxi cuz of all the vibrations.. and i dont like to drive so i must make them drive more often so they'll be more familiar and can take over the wheels! will god pls help to give them the feeling quickly?

ahh.. i totally left out the part about coach bringing us to buy the mobile phones.. after about 30 mins of asking the blackberry plans, we've all decided on the 30+ euros/mth plan and wanted to get the blackberry already.. then, we took a closer look at the phone and realised it's not in the QWERTY keyboard.. it's in AZERTY keyboard.. damned french keyboards..

if i wasn't such an anal person, i would have just accepted it so i could keep in touch all my bb friends, but the most important person i wanna keep in touch with in glamis when he goes over to the states.. haha, i'm so excited i can't wait for him to receive the present i've planned for him.. i would love to do it on my own, but it costs 25 euros to mail it back =( decided to send a letter and get bo to help me make the present then.. but he seems kind of busy and the saying goes, beggars cant be choosers, so i'll just have to wait for him to be free..

hmm.. pas tres bien ah.. there's so much to study, and i feel the workload upon my shoulders.. haha, seriously i need to get my procedures memorised, all of them are still in the "dogshit" phase..

today was good, we've finally got our bank card and cheque book, which in turn allows us to get the phoneline.. also sent the documents for the car insurance, and in 12 hours the car will be here! it's been 3 months! left hand drive, manual transmission, and lots of parallel parking. god dammit why am i the driver?

lol, i had a really big quarrel with gabriel at the squadron today.. but i cannot really be bothered to retype the incident since i've already told glamis about it on msn.. so..

yw says:

*lol

*gab and i had a quarrel man

glam says:

*lol

*what happened?

yw says:

*haha

*fucking stupid lah

*we were telting the maps

*den we nv do our own wad we just divide and do randomly

*just nice i was doing his

*den i piu qiu

*the map slanted a bit

*den the french trainee tried to help

*end up got like a bit of air bubbles on 1 part

*den he damn pissed off

*started showing attitude

*and he didnt stop after awhile

*which he felt was in seconds, and i felt was 5 mins

*lol

*so i scolded him

glam says:

*then?

yw says:

*and said dont behave like that

*if he's not happy he can take my map or something

*cuz the french trainee try to help den u lidat attitude it doesnt look good

*den he kept on kpkb

*and i asked him to stop whining cuz there's nothing he can do, if he wants to cry about it he can go back to sg and cry to his mum

*and stop behaving like a baby

*den he damn dulan

*so we quarrelled

*and we didnt talk after that

*den when everything was done and there was nothign to do already

*about 10 mins later i came out from the toilet and he saw me he asked me to go outside and talk

glam says:

*wah

*then

yw says:

*i just dismissed him and said there's no need for it, i dont want to talk to him

*den he come into the room and insisted on talking to me like a gentleman

*so i talked to him

*and said i will only talk to him nicely if he doesnt behave like he owns the world

*liek whole world owe him money sia

*u know the first thing i think of is the OCS book out incident that the SSG jiale pump us for

*and i told him exactly the same thing

*when something goes wrong, it doesn't automatically grant u the permission to show ur temper

*haha

glam says:

*hahaha

*then then

yw says:

*den he keep on being very politically correct say all those things that is said when u look back retrospectively

*and he keeps insisting that when he's angry, WITH HIMSELF apparently

*i should just leave him alone

*instead of embarrassing him in front of the other 2 trainees

*i know i was harsh

*but i didnt care

*i told him it's not the first time this kind of things happen

*the previous time we all left him alone

*and it doesnt seem like it works based on this incident

*den he said now since we both know how the both of us operate, next time we shoudl just let the other be

*and i told him

*dont worry

glam says:

*HAHAHA

*sian

yw says:

*the next time he behaves like that, i will definitely not interfere cuz i'm not here to see him show his attitude, i'm here to pass my course

glam says:

*NICE

yw says:

*and i told him i'll draw a line frombeing a colleague and being friends

*as a colleague, if there's anything regarding the course i'll definitely help

*den he "so u're telling me we're not friends now is it?"

*and i said "based on what happened, i dont think i can bear with a friend like u"

glam says:

*WAH

yw says:

*and i told him to think about it, like next time if he goes back to sg squadron and something goes wrong, will he be reacting like that? if not, why not? and why is he reacting like that now

*food for thought

*haha

glam says:

*damn harsh

*but have too

*to*

yw says:

*and i told him outright that if this is the way he behaves, liek when things doens't go his way he show attitude, there's no way i can tolerate it for 18 months

glam says:

*what he say?

yw says:

*haha he said "ok lor, but just think about wad we've said, might be good for the future" and i said "sure"

*haha

glam says:

*wah

*like that you and him cannot be friends sia

yw says:

*it sucks that things turn out this way

*but i seriously dont care

glam says:

*hahaha

yw says:

*i'm here to pass my course, if along the way i can make a few good friends, it's a bonus

*if not, doens't matter

glam says:

*but i totally agree with what you say. colleagues and friends different

*some are colleagues, some are friends

yw says:

*definitely

*in fact it was after we came to france that i begin to let him into my world of friends, even though we're not really close. but that incident with ah yap kinda pushed him out of it again..

*and this time, needless to say

*so i just be very honest with him and tell him i can only treat him like a colleague.

glam says:

*yeah

*anyway sorry i can't stick around to talk bro

*so much to catch up on

*but i got to go already

*tomorrow work

yw says:

*no probelm man

*totally understanrd

*haha

*wait and see if i get a BB

*den we can talk everyday lah

*ahahah

glam says:

*hahaha

*nice

*kk

*see you!

*in the meantime take care!

yw says:

*right

*ciao

i'm back.. well, it was a half trip to italy i guess..

milan- CHECK (really big one cuz we combed alot of places)
venice- CHECK (big one too)
florence- quarter check, only visited pisa and i was down with food poisoning..
rome- well, can't check this.. was too sick for anything.. putain..

venice and rome are some places i dont mind going again.. damn, rome is like a museum itself..

it's been a really long journey, i'll try to detail the stuffs.. overall it was a pleasant trip with a few nice events happening but marred by my food poisoning..

monday 21st dec, went by train to paris and i helped this frail looking old lady carry her baggage which weighed at least 20kg up the overhead bridge.. i swear it was damn heavy and i tried to act strong by pretending to smile as i climbed the steps.. exchanged a few words with the lady using my dog shit french, and when she found out that i was a "student" she gave me 5 euros for helping her with her bag.. i refused but she said it was for christmas and was very insistent that i accept it so i did.. then the train got delayed so i reached at 9pm.. went to forestier's place for some champagne and wine, met his friend fanny, she's really pretty and hot haha.. and a lawyer.. aiseh.. ended about 3am and took a cab back to my hotel, it's surprisingly cheap cuz it's only about 11 euros..

tuesday 22 dec, forest showed me around the heart of paris, been to many places.. and i walked more than 10 km for that day! we wanted to go up the eiffel tower but there was a really low cloud base so we gave it a miss.. he showed me to the outskirt of paris and guess how we got there? cycled with the public bicycles! 1 euro for half an hour.. and at 5pm, it's not a joke to cycle on the roads of champs elysees! now i finally realised why i repeatedly failed my bike test.. simply cuz i would be riding like a car and unable to squeeze through heavy traffic! god dammit.. it was just so-so when we got there cuz it's the CBD area of paris, but it's all skyscrapers and we have that all over sg.. so no biggie i feel.. went to a bar for some drinks before dinner, and somehow it became more drinks, and more drinks.. haha 150 euros or drinks.. god.. haha of cuz i only attributed to 35 euros.. lol

wednesday, wanted to go eiffel tower but there were toooooo many pple, it was almost like the queues from the different corners were gonna meet each other? went to the louvre museum instead and as i was in the queue for the tickets, this lady (singaporean i assume) came to me and asked me if i was alone? i said yes and she gave me a free ticket and told me she doesnt need it.. haha it costs 14 euros and it's the "all area pass" ticket.. haha i'm sorry to say, i only wanted to buy the 9 euro "visit the museum" pass.. =X spent like 4-5 hours in there cuz there were simply toooooo many things to see.. of cuz the most famous being mona lisa.. i didnt think it was particularly impressive, perhaps i dont know how to appreciate it?

thursday, met hew, kwong weng and samuel for the italy trip, got to milan. let's stop here and continue some other time, it's 1130pm here and i got to slp! ciaooo.